blog about the deepest darkes thoughts about someone dear to my heart

Say what's real...
 
I somehow found the courage when I saw you, everything I thought came out so fast that I missed half of what I told you.
But you have been blind. And the inability to answer me seems to be answer enough.
I want to chase after you for your real thoughts but I wish you were the one chasing after me.
Just man up and tell me the truth! I need to know if we ever stand a chance of making that day an every day thing.
 
Give me that much respect for everything I have put up with for your sake.

She cant have children.
She cant get married.
She seems depressed.
She gives off bad vibes.
She's a maid.
She's making my job hell
 
is this going to be an ENDLESS cycle until one of us quits the game?
 
PEACE
LOVE
HAPPINESS

Forgive me father for I have sinned...
 
Lying to someone I love
Admitting feelings when they aren't ready to be heard - though there never is a good time to do so.
Immorality.
lacking class.
 
may i find the ability to cope with the stresses of my actions
may the answers enlighten me
about my future and guide me on the correct path.
may my immaturity not cause harm to those who love me

and so I discovered something more than pretty shells or a bottle which drifted out from sea, more than nooks in the seaside bush or that a monkey was watching us in the dark while we were highly distracted :: I DISCOVERED THAT THE OCEAN SHOWS YOU WHETHER YOU ARE COMPATIBLE WITH SOMEONE!

"She was my down chick, I was her soldier
I was her gangsta, she was my shoulder
You were the pistol to my holster
Bang!"
 
"I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did"
 
Reality is, I only know you on a superficial level right now.
But there were moments where the world stopped and only you and I mattered.
The room disappeared around us.
My smile was at its sincerest.
 
It seems so strange to me to have this intense craving for someone, someone I've only been able to be close to for hours at a time - these moments few and far between.
 
What has this hold on me? Why are YOU so vitally important? Why cant I let go?
 
They say that every chance you get you should tell those you care for how you feel because you may not get the chance to do so. So why cant I muster up the courage to tell you?
 
wrong.
we're both not in the position to admit or hear feelings.
 
I miss you. I want your tonguering in my mouth again.
 
blunt.